it feels like everyone around me is becoming weird all of a sudden. (or perhaps its not... but just that its a lil' late that i noticed that's all.) or isit me? that's becoming weird instead? no no...
and so coincidentally had a chat with yx yesterday bout weird things...

been on an intensive job hunt... written so many application forms that i'm so familarised with the template and what to fill in...
pray, i get a good job before Christmas. (:


i love the Christmasy feeling.

but i'm not looking forward to Christmas...



P.S: i'm sitting here, trying to convince myself, that you're not the one for me. goodbye. 12:09 PM

its so awesome to shop alone. like seriously... woohooo! totally enjoyed myself today. wandering about and getting lost. but end up still managed to find my way back. hooorayyyy!!!and lols!! an ang moh talked to me on an escalater. he was saying he feels like he is walking in a person's living room. cos the whole mall is carpeted. go figure out which mall. :)))


and on the way back some kuku fella bumped into me.
it was like this...
a group of friends walking walking...
this kuku fella talking talking to his friends...
Guy Friend A said: eh careful.
Girl Friend B said: hey carefullll...
too late.
BUMPPP!
Guy Friend A: sorry sorry.
Girl Friend B: aiyo told you to be careful already...
kuku fella still blur blur...

jokes sia... especially their convo after that. which i could hear even though i was like 10 steps away? hahas~



and this is to my darling buddy yara *if you happen to see this: i wanna meet you hottie babe!!! miss you so super duper much!!! is your old number still in use? drop me a msg yea...



P.S: i guess now its the time to start rebuilding and strengthening friendship... (: 10:18 PM

tired~ zzz...

gyming can really take up lotsa energy and make me super duper hungry and eat like a lion! rawr!!! prata! i want eat prata!

need a job. found a job. got a job. no more job. finding jobs. getting job. letting go that job. once again, searching for jobs... yea... that's the cycle. but yupp. i want a job. a suitable job that is. with proper working hours and all. thanks.


i still can't believe i dreamt bout this dream... of you and i. and, i woke up tearing...



P.S: 2 is better than 1. 10:59 PM

headache headache. so apparently i decided to yi di gong du and went for a run. sprinting. 8 rounds. and viola, surprisingly headache's gone... but still, the pain remains...


haiz.. so many friends going overseas or who have already gone overseas... i wanna go somewhere too.
and my "bro" going army like tmr... gahhhhh!! and more getting in soon...


if you just realize, what i just realize... do you?



P.S: i'll give you all my riches, in exchange for that peaceful soul... 10:59 PM

i just couldn't figure it out. right from the start till now...

earned myself so much of scolding and "lecturing" from friends. defending you ever since the beginning till now. what's the use right? seriously. so did anything changed? no. and i can never comprehend the fact of how you like to evade problems instead of solving them. how difficult it is for you to apologise. and how the word sorry is being "misused".


c'mon gal. its really time for you to wise up. and from today onwards, you gotta be strong and firm on your stand and you are a human. warm blooded human who can feel and all. not some unfeeling doll. so do, please, spare a thought, for yourself, if not for your own feelings. thank you very much.



P.S: you never know how much it pains me.. but i finally got it all out. and it hurts me much more than i could imagine. 10:13 PM

to all those emo kiddos out there, here's a huge :) okies. i mean imagine it luh... so yea... especially to 3 of my dearest friends... lols. dunno why we in the same boat. but ah well, never mind. just well, cheer up, forget it, and move on. yes MOVE ON! heard that? MOVE ON!!! and yupp.



P.S: MOVE ON! 11:20 PM

was looking for some stuff just now.. and i happened to chance upon a box which i haven't really touch for quite some time.. yea... and in this box retains many memories... precious memories..




P.S: watcha say... 10:24 PM

so was town-ing around yesterday... didn't buy anything.. sad case right... but well, save money luh... for other purposes of course.. and the more i think bout what will come about after i've saved enough, the more satisfied i feel and am so proud of myself for not wasting money. cheers~
and happened to bump into 10 people yesterday in town. lols~ i saw shan, cussie, eric, jasmine, yt, hy, sher, ju, cher and jw. goshhh! so many people town-ing too. yupp and i got 3 blisters... new shoes of good quality and material are a very practical form of gift for Christmas i guess...


dunno why... but not really looking forward to grad nite tomorrow all of a sudden.. dun feel like dressing up suddenly and yea... oh wells~ but i guess i should enjoy myself before i start work and gonna be so tired...


was just looking through some photos taken recently... and the two cuts are still so visible till now... well, i guess it's a gift.. that will never ever be lost.


sometimes, i just wished you were here somehow or other. at least here for me when i needed you most. but where were you? and where are you now? do you even know how i feel in the past and now?



P.S: prisoner of love <3 1:57 PM

aiyo so wanna go running just now... but then too late... i dun like to have excess energy stored up in me. humph!!!




P.S: sometimes, perfection ain't a beauty... 10:30 PM